It is so fucking exhausting fighting your brain every day dude
me: i want more friends!
me, actually talking to a new person: this is so stressful i’m going to fucking Die, i have to flee the country and fake my own death
sry but depression for me isn’t smudged mascara and crying into a boy’s chest and acting romantic and reckless, it’s honestly just staring at the wall and not showering for days and not going out with friends and feeling so fucking disconnected from everything that i can barely breathe. it’s not pretty. it doesn’t have to be pretty. fuck you for trying to make a mental illness aesthetically pleasing, like it’s something i should be proud of.
I’m rly tired of feeling like an embarrassing loser bc I haven’t done 99% of the things people in my age group are supposed to have done it’s honestly so depressing lol
so… i accidentally cared for 2 minutes and now i’m gonna be sad for at least three weeks lmfao
